From today till Saturday (6/23), I’ll be posting daily here at Wyvia to help visualize (with eyes and my olfactories) our upcoming wedding. Then next week (6/25 – 6/30), I’ll post daily to help ground myself in the audible sensations of our wedding—music, vows; so I’ll be playing by ear.
All of this writing is more like pre-writing exercises—an attempt to solidify ideas.
Headspace ✅ Prior to Goal
I should have challenged this writing project earlier.
However, I struggle with releasing ideas into the atmosphere, then feeling the sting of rejection; and I think many people experience this struggle, so I soothe myself by reasoning, Rejection’s a human experience.
Until I run into the big, dark demon beneath rejection—the one I can’t shoo away.
I’m battling with a monster of an issue with sharing something, then feeling like those words fell into a black hole, into Elsewhere. Like my ideas never happened. From what I’ve gathered through journaling, in my headspace, rejection equates to negative acknowledgement; whereas, ignorance equates to nonexistence.
The Elsewhere feeling is another common, yet much darker, experience: It’s easier to feel lonely alone than feel lonely in a crowd. We’ve all heard this before, yes?—but I cannot shake the funk of it. So while my posts for the next two weeks are intended to feel whimsical or lighthearted—weddings, at first glance, I thought were whimsical and lighthearted—the next two weeks of writing will also take some bravery.
This music video hits the feeling-nail better than my words:
(After I finish this 2-week project, I’ll be psychoanalyzing my relationship with this video ; but I need to wander within a little more before I can compare-contrast.)
Truth be told, this two-week goal scares me more than any of the tasks I set up for myself while exploring my autism, at my other blog.
I’ll check on these feelings within my head again, as part of an After 2-Week Goal reflection—because I’d like to get to a place where my feelings make sense.
First matters first: my bloodhound nose.
I’d like aromatherapy at the wedding not just for the therapeutic effects, but because scent triggers memory—so I want to use blends that are familiar and common in my safe spaces, activating that “you’re safe” memory in my amygdala.
Because of this, I’d like to use my depression blend of 2 parts lavender, 2 parts grapefruit, and 1 part frankincense, with 5-7 drops per coffee cup of water.
We own three diffusers, two which are single-room, and one which works well across the living room and dining room. One of the smaller diffusers has a simple wood appearance, and does well blending in to other decor. It looks similar (but not identical) to this:
The other two diffusers are more eye-catching, with LED-powered plastic bodies that play with bubble-infused glass (which makes a great visual stim), like this:
So the smaller, visually pleasing diffuser could go in the room where I’m getting ready, before walking down the aisle; and the larger, visually pleasing diffuser could go in the commons area, where everyone will be waiting and talking; while the subtle, wooden-style diffuser could hide in a corner near the restroom.
Accent Aromatherapy Candles
I have bags of wax, as well as turquoise and mint wax coloring. I plan to make lots of small candles with 2 parts lavender, 2 parts grapefruit, and 1 part frankincense so the scents work with one another; all the other candles should be unscented, or the effects of the aromatherapy could backfire into migraines.
I’m not sure where my handmade candles will go, but if we don’t use them, that’ll be okay; someone, somewhere in the future, will want to burn the candles.
My Aromatherapy Pinterest
In case you’re interested in more aromatherapy ideas…
Also, I spent a week talking about aromatherapy at my other blog. 💙👃💙
And I shared a creativity blend at Luna Luna. 💜🖤💛